So there are a few things about me that I base how life decisions will affect me.
- I am a Christian, so I do pray about pretty much everything. One thing that I have to consider is where am I going to find another church community. Luckily South Korea has a large Christian population and I have no doubt I will be able to find a place to call my home away from home.
- I am a woman (shock!), so I think about my environment and possible situations a lot. I have been to Taipei Taiwan before and was able to wander around the city and take the buses without any trouble. I am hoping for the same.
- I am bipolar, which throws a wrench into some things such as waves of depression or anxiety. Being away from home and safe spaces I have made is scary to me. Not to mention being away from people to talk to about it. Not to mention the medication that I am on to keep me level. Does that stop? How does it keep going?
There are some other points and questions that roll around in the back of my head.
- Living. Where am I suppose to live? I know certain countries provide your housing (like Korea) but it's more of a matter of what does living there look like. Am I by myself or with a roommate? There are pros and cons to both. I mean. I could go crazy. Or I could room with a crazy.
- What age range am I going to teach? You can teach young kids like 4 years old to college and professional. I suppose when I go through the certification I will find out what to do. I am sure that God has a plan anyway.
- Uhh soooo am I up to teach English at all?? I have no idea. Since I have never done it. However the more people I talk to the same theme comes up between all of them. Pretty much everyone tells me right away that they could have seen me teaching english abroad. It has been very affirming but I still struggle with doubt.
- What about isolation? I mean I would be transplanting myself to a land where I know no one at all and don't speak the language. I have been told by people with experience that many people there speak english. The time difference will be difficult as well. If I wanted to talk to family and friends it would either have to be crazy early or crazy late for them.
I have to believe that God will provide and fill new holes in my life. He also equips the called and since I believe that this decision and season is from him I have to run straight for it. There will be other thoughts I will share in future posts. If you have been one of those few people I have talked all of this through, thank you so much for your support and input. It has really blessed me and given me the courage to look up to Jesus and move forward.
