I've discovered a problem with this decision (besides the many I have already listed), and that is the wait. I have to wait for the money to come in in order to do my certification course. So now I am here doing nothing until that magic day comes.
When I feel like this day will never come or I will run out of steam and give up on the whole thing I start to feel the depression coming in. In order to combat this I have been researching like mad. When I feel that itch BAM Google is there to free me from the depths of my mind. I have read up on schools, testimonies, packing list, antipacking list, mail, culture shock, etc. The list goes on. I currently have a guide book in front of me and I have checked out discs from the library on how to learn Korean. It's maddening.
With all this research I feel as though I am beating the beast back so to speak. One that will eventually catch up with me until I make some real steps towards my goal. I am, however, close to getting my passport renewed which is my first step.
I don't want to let myself down. I don't want to let anyone down. Especially after preaching that I was making this decision. But God has a plan here and I believe I will find myself in South Korea soon. I am praying for alignment of events and funds and a calming of nerves.
