Hey. It's me. Past Chelsea. I know that you are much older and wiser but if I am reading history right there are some things about us that just don't change. But hey! I may be wrong. At any rate, let me just jot down a few things that will help remind you to keep your eyes on the mission.
First of all, you're doing a great job. No really! No no don't give me that crap. Just look at what you've done so far! When I was my age I hadn't done the things that you've accomplished. Even though it may not look like much you're really killing it.
On a serious matter, fear and anxiety sucks. BUT REMEMBER it is not you! This fear is not you and it is not your logical brain trying to tell you you're doing the wrong thing. Fear comes from one place and you know where. Your journey is indeed frightening. You are stepping out in your faith claiming "yes! I will follow the mission God has given to me!" You have never done something this big. We've always played it small. We've always had someone there to hold our hand. You know what you get when you play it small? You win small. Play big, win big. Move with God's purpose on your life and you'll move mountains. God is there with you! He will provide for you in a way you didn't seem possible.
"No eye has seen, no ear has heard, and no mind has imagined what God has prepared for those who love him." 1 Cor 2:9
"For I know the plans I have for you,” declares the LORD, “plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future." Jer 29:11
"Trust in the LORD with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight." Prob 3:5-6
Fear has no place in your walk with Jesus who leads you by the hand towards his mission. His plan is never late, nor is it early, it arrives precisely when it means to (lawl get it like a wizard).
I hope this helps you out with whatever you are going through. Just know that I believe in you, our family, friends, and church believes in you, and most importantly Jesus is so with you and for you. If you ever need anything please don't hesitate to reach out to the big man.
Cheers,
Chelsea
p.s. Don't ever let your mind tell you you can't do it.
